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I am selfish, I told him.
Why he asked?
I replied, because I love you.
That’s not selfish, he said.
Yes, it is, I told him.
I love you because
I enjoy the feeling of giving you my love, not because I want you to enjoy receiving my love.
I am with you, because I enjoy the feeling of being with you, not because I want you to enjoy being with me.
This to me, is selfish.
I selfishly love you.
Well, then I selfishly love, he said.
Together we can flow, loving ourselves experiencing love, he said.
Okay then, I love Me, loving You.
I told him. Selfish love….

Happy Anniversary!!!!  It’s my 1yr anniversary! Wooooohooooo🎶

I hope you are meeting this day with light and love! This post is pretty late but right on divine time. I’ve been flowing with life lately and Being has felt sooooo good! As some of you know, I’ve entered this blogging world last year, after much procrastination and contemplation. It was actually born from an over flowing Love that I needed to allow to escape the confinement of my heart. On July 10, 2017 I published my first blog post revealing myself to the world. AnasaLaa, established in 1978 now had a space on the World Wide Web. I have been sharing my thoughts and my heart along this journey, in this space to help me and you, know that love is in each moment!

It’s really crazy to see how a year can go by so quickly! There’s a lot in store for the future and I can’t wait to share!

Thank you to all you, who have been supporting my thoughts even when they are heading ‘left’ or ‘going south’ as the sayings go! lol I also express much appreciation and gratitude to all who supported #anasalaa gives- stay tune for more agape giving initiatives.

Thank you to all who browse my social medias and place a heart on my Digital Pixpressions on Instagram. I will continue to share my love of photography and the use of words to spark emotions. It has always been one of my favorite forms of expression in this life.

I hope we continue to share time and space and know that love is truly in each and every moment of our lives, we just have to be open to see.

With love and light,
Anasa Laa

January has been such an interesting life changing month. It is the first month of my 40^th year. Yes, I had my 40^th birthday this first month, of 2018. I didn’t do much to celebrate, simple spa day at my favorite spa in Virginia. Yea, I’m like 40 years young. I say young because that’s what my Granny says when she speaks of age.  Well, as I reflect on this month, I think about how I’ve related to others and how others perceive me.  The month started with an amazing experience in the U.S. Virgin Island relating to strangers and meeting some amazing Light. I celebrated the New Year with strangers in a strange place and it was so amazing. Then the month ended with the closing of relating to someone I thought was a close friend of 3 years, who turned out to not be a friend at all. Well, at least it did not appear that this person considered me a friend. Misunderstood words and (I admit) my stubbornness; this energy, moved like a tornado and as easy as passing weather, this friendship ended with a message of ‘leave me the hell alone’. I never in my life experienced such a whirlwind of emotions. But reflecting to the beginning, I have never flowed through emotions as I did in this experience of relating to another.  In this moment, I was simply numb; it was like it hit me straight in my heart, passed through my human body directly to my soul. My soul ached… and my soul cried for days. I thought of wishing I had never met this person or the people who were connected within the spiraling degrees of union. But such is how it all played out and supposedly all meetings are divine. A divine play and the curtains were quickly closing. I was also told that “I think I’m so intelligent that I can speak to people any way I want and that I’m driven by emotions.” Not sure why my intelligence was even targeted. (I am spiritually intelligent and I know some taught ish, but that in between social cue crap… that’s another blog post LOL) Driven by emotions, what does that exactly mean? These critiques actually hurt because I think that I’m a very nice person, but what are you to do if you’re misunderstood.  I’ve often thought if there could be background music to our life experiences/moments, like a score in a movie, Nina Simone would sing ‘don’t let me be misunderstood’. But, is this really how some perceive me? That would be unfortunate because judgement was made (even though at initial meeting I was asked to not judge) before Seeing Me, Knowing Me. My career isn’t me. My accomplishments aren’t me. They are simply ingredients combined to cook up the fabulous human that I’m still striving to Be.  As Nina sings, “I’m just a soul, whose intentions are good, oh lord please don’t let me be misunderstood.” Anyway this reflection isn’t to whine about a lost pseudo-friendship; they come and go, even if in this instance it struck so deeply, that I lost my cry. I was left with a strong ache in my heart chakra and falling pain in my soul.  This reflection is to attempt to discover the lesson in it all, find the Light.

Hmmmm, driven by emotion; initially defensive, not at all am I driven by emotion.  I have never even had a physical fight or true verbal argument. Nothing is that serious. I do speak my mind openly and raw, with no filter.   But, I was thinking about it as a bad quality to have; to feel emotions and feel them deeply. Even to get lost in emotion. I meditated on it (something that I lost relating in this scene), there’s got to be a lesson somewhere in this life shifting, three year encounter. The judgement of another that ended, what I thought was a blossoming friendly, relating between like souls. Then within a moment, I got an amazing flash of insight from my inner self or maybe the ancestors and said out loud in my apartment “Hell yeah, I am driven by emotions!!” My emotions are the matches that spark the fire in me to do what I do when I hit a wall along this journey. Some of the walls have been full size cement blocks. It is the oil in my engine to keep my soul running. It is that storm in my spirit that pushes me to push on when I want to give up. This thing called emotions is what started the slave revolts, the civil rights movement and made my people enraged enough to shout ‘black lives matter’. It’s those deep emotions that have paved the way for me to be unapologetically Me, all full of emotions. Without that ignite of emotion that feeds my passion, I would just chill in the World of complacency. See, I’d rather be driven by emotion rather than by desire. When driven by desire one can be bought and sold, like a slave. That desire for fame, money, recognition and the vices of our society. I can’t be bought. I can’t be shifted. I can’t be swayed. I’m not driven by my wants and desires but by the true deep feeling of my emotions that fuel my passion to Be.

I can see why that comment struck me so deeply, we’re told to be strong and to let no one see you cry. I cry. I cry often.  Every article discusses emotional intelligence. But what does that really mean? Is it managing your emotions or numbing your emotions? (Maybe in another post I’ll get into that.) I believe that we need to learn how to utilize our emotions with intention and purpose, to fuel us like ammunition to thrive to fulfill our destiny. We need to get so enraged, so full that we’re going to burst. If you’re innately a person of light and of love, all of that emotion will make you magic, a magician, and you will manifest; fulfill your destiny. Think of it like this, we all have the ability to be rare diamonds but you go through the pressures, the emotions, which make you push through life to shine.

My emotions have birthed #AnasaLaa Blog, #AnasaLaaPixpressions, #AnasaLaaGives, and all that is to come and I’m excited to flow with her! In this January reflection, I say Thank You to who was thought to be a friend, who once told me to use my words during a road trip, for sparking these amazing emotions that led to the birth of #AnasaLaaReflections. In this scene of life’s play, I’m reminded that Love Is In Each Moment! Simply reflect and continue to flow.

If you haven’t already done so, let 2018 be the year that you start your journal. I’ve kept a journal since my teenage years and it’s quite amazing to read the thoughts of your past.

• Reflect on your perceptions about emotions.
• What have you been told as a child when you cried?
• Write it down.
• Sit with it in silence.

You are the only one who can truly tell your story from your Being!

Peace. Love. Light.

Leave a comment and let me know your January reflection!

It has been an interesting few weeks with all of the natural and man-made disasters. Stress management is important not only for those who have lost everything to Mother Earth’s wrath, but also the responders and the spectators. Many who are simply watching television may experience the same levels of stress as those who actually dealt with the storm. They may even develop PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder).  So what do you do to manage stress?  I used to practice yoga, sit in the steam room at the gym, massage therapy /spa days, and ride my bicycle. I have been a little lazy with working out, but I do make it to a spa often. I also burn some incense and meditate. If you haven’t tried meditation, you should. Now my ultimate stress reliever is traveling. There are so many ways that you can deal with stress. I’ll share what I do in my next post. Let me know how you deal with  your stress in the comments section below.