It’s about 4 months into the year 2020. I haven’t written a blog post or published a reflection in quite some time. I guess I can say, I’ve been living the journey not just flowing as usual. I’ve been trying to make life happen, yea that’s what I’ll say. Make goals come to fruition. See if love would happen and career will flourish. Well, not all has come to fruition, for whatever reason, but it’s been quite a journey. Where do I start? Hmmm let’s start with the present and look back. Sankofa.
It’s the last day of April 2020 and we, meaning the entire world, is experiencing a pandemic. Yes! A Global Pandemic. An outbreak of a novel strain of the coronavirus family known as SARS-Cov2 is sweeping the planet. Millions are suffering and dying from the disease that it causes, COVID-19. It’s strange. As we know, there are many infectious diseases that kill twice as many, but this is a pandemic – there is no vaccine or treatment. The last pandemic that I can remember was in 2009, H1N1- pandemic influenza. I don’t want to go into details about this experience, that’s not what this blog post is supposed to be about. This post is about Being. It’s about Living. Loving. Achievements and Flow. However, I will say that all we were asked to do was stay home and Be Still as scientists and world leaders try to figure out how to manage the outbreaks. It’s like telling fish to walk on the sidewalk. The lack of care and empathy that I have observed by many is baffling to me. Simple responsibility, is all that is needed by the masses. Nevertheless, I’ve been in my house since mid-March with no desire to go outside until I know more about the virus; until I feel safe. Ain’t nobody trying to get sick! I spread light amongst our healthcare workers and the many in public service jobs, keeping the planet functioning during this time.
Now, to talk about Being, Living, Loving, and Flowing…a lot has happened since I last posted. I don’t think I can go that far back, so I will just start from toward the end of 2019. Every day is still a journey toward being and just becoming more Me. Learning about my heart, my relating to others and just the continued misperception of my character, my personality, and just Me entirely. When I was in college, [haha went way back] I used to always say that “you have to teach people how to treat you”. As I got older, I no longer taught, I thought I had proper judgement. I can say that I expect too much of myself in others. Reflections. But are those you relate to truly reflections of You. Back when I was a young adult, maybe toward the end of high school and throughout college, I used to say that I ‘live without expectations’. Actually, I think that was my thing up until my early 30s. No expectations, No disappointments. Somewhere in my recent years I lost this. I lost my ability to See and Read, when it came to relating to others. I expected people to treat each other properly. With empathy and care. Especially those you consider ‘friend’. I know now, the best way to go along this journey is with clear Sight and very little direct care for others. See. You can care on the larger scale for humanity, want the World and all of its inhabitants to flourish and live a decent life. But, individually, remove that care, remove that empathy. Focus on Self. My belief was, once my cup was overflowing, I can allow that Flow to runoff unto others, especially my Reflections. However, that is not the case. We have to remove the empathy, which is very difficult for me because I am an Empath. I feel… gives a whole new meaning to “I feel you”. I really do. LOL
Anyway, reflecting back on the past year, this was my take away. Not my lesson, because I knew this – just needed to remember. As the last Supermoon of 2020 comes into full form, we should sit in meditation. I wanted to be sure that I got this post published in time for the full moon. Why? Because, this moon is special, a moon of many names, but mainly known as the Flower Moon. I can’t wait to moon gaze. I’m a Lady of the Moon. Take a moment and gaze at the moon. Feel Her energy, absorb Her power. Then before you lay to dream travel, sit in meditation. Doesn’t have to be long at all. Just sit in silence and listen to the noise of your mind, your surrounding, your space. I know some may say meditation is to clear your mind. That is absolute Truth. Meditation is not prayer, in my opinion. You are to be silent. Breathe. Listen. A good practice is beginning your meditation with a set intention. Everyone has their own interpretation of meditation and their own practice. I will share a little of what I do. The best meditation I’ve ever experienced, I travel into my mind. It probably lasted for an hour or so.. in complete silence and in darkness. Maybe have some incense burning, maybe near a window where I can feel the light of the moon at any phase, or maybe on my balcony where the cool night breeze can caress my body. You can also choose your meditation attire. My favorite attire is my skin. My birthday suit, naked with myself, sitting in complete darkness. I like to meditate in the dark. I’m not sure why, but it just feels like the perfect way to meet Me. Now go dive deep within your Self. Go on the Journey, flow with it. You may cry, but you may also laugh… you may even fall asleep. You will definitely meet yourself.
Let me know in the comments how your meditation journey is flowing. This journey is about remembering…. that love is in each moment. More to come…. 2020!